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Another one exits the (burning) building.

Hey Mike, So, my mom died about 90 minutes ago, I was here holding her hand the whole way. She was fading pretty quick in the last 3 days and when she new she was going she reached out for my hand and I held it and kept telling her how much I and all of us loved her. Soon she'd be out of pain and back riding horses and playing with all the dogs. Give her a hug for me if you happen to end of on the same extistential plane as she's on. Death is fucking lame. It's just done. She just went away, and I have to say after that experience I have a hard time believeing anyone could possibly believe there is a heaven or a hell. There is clearly only sweet release from the struggle of life, right? And you have to be pretty thankful for the things you get to do and the people you get to meet. I am so thankful for all of it, and I guess that's one of the advantages of losing my dad so early (almost 30 years ago exactly, she came really fucking close to matching the date) I not only got a good slap in the face that one day, we are just gone. Anyway, I'll have more to say once I get some sleep - these last 48 hours with her were rough. But I have to tell you two things: one, you will be delighted to know Jackie spent the last month smoking joints like a pro; it really seemed to help her relax and deal with the pain. Plus, I would let her smoke them without having the doors open (wouldn't let her do that with the tobacco) and two: she got off this fucked up USA circus train bfore it comes fully off the rails. I'm so happy she didn't have to watch the rest of what was left of America go up in literal flames. That said, I miss you, especially as once again I'm going through the loss of a parent all on my own. Luckily Scott and I are still best friends, so all will be good, and we are solid on mark. Anyway, that's it for now, but if you see her in the stardust out there (she's getting creamated too) spark a bowl with her, she loves a nice indica. :)m

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