Hi Mike,
What's weird, is that it's all the same, and yet so different.
I am gonna die soon, like you. I'm gonna be a blip in the world. As tortured as I am sometimes by the feeling that I should have done more, changed more, worked harder, been a bigger pain in everyone's ass, I am also now finally in that endgame where I am working from home, kind of fine with dying tomorrow.
It's weird. Sure, there are plenty of things I'd still like to do, and places to go. However, I'm also pretty fucking comfortable with it all being done tomorrow, and Mike, honestly so much of that has to do with you. Though you and I wouldn't have been you and I if I hadn't fucking tapped your shoulder in in Mass Comm 38 years ago.
I need to be clear about that: I hit you up.
People (Dawn, mostly I think) will say it was maybe a bad choice. But I don't think so. I think, even though I never took most of the chances that came while I was with you (though I took a lot of them: I applied to be the booker at 9:30)....
(ok. too drunk on 12/06/2024 to finish so we'll stop here, the bottom was written 11/26 of this year)
Well, it happened, and we are gonna do this nonsense again, and this time, the radical Christian bullshit contingent has taken the wheel, for real. This isn't PMRC, or Jerry Falwell shit - this time it's some real Nazi, tear-up-the-constitution stuff.
All my life I wondered what the Fall of Rome was like on a day-to-day level. Now I know.
Fucking internet. Literally ruining everything: the planet, human brains, everything.
Sigh. No amount of kids playing angry music is gonna get us out of this one. All that is really left is to wait for the computers to take over and extinguish humans because we are useless to the world as a whole.
Recently the meme about how Musk is pouring all this money into creating a livable Mars, when he COULD actually use that money to make the world here for all of us better. All the fucking billionaires man, all of them.
It's so depressing and I'm sad and lonely and want to cry (but can't) all the time.
Yay, holiday time is a treat :(
Hey Mike. Look, I know you always wanted a kid - on our first option to become parents you very vividly made the case that "If we have a kid and teach it to play drums, we'll always have a drummer" - or you may have said it on the occasion of our second chance to have a kid. But either or both times, it struck me as not the best way to approach parenthood. Of course, in hindsight, there's never a best time, or way to have kids. That being said, I am currently both super happy to not be responsible for the aboslute monstrosity of a generation that "Z" is - because in my head, I was all set to regret that I won't have anyone to take care of me in my old age (should I manage to live that long) and relived that none of this bullshit is my fault. Lately though, I don't know if any kid I would have had would give two shits about me (or you) at this point anyway. I mean the one kid you did have has changed their gender, and seems fully on board (as one wou...
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